Wild Orange was an idea, a thought bubble I wanted to bring to life to share my story of how I recovered from chronic fatigue syndrome. I also wanted to share positive stories of recovery of others I felt this was important because when I was diagnosed everything I read was dark and gloomy and largely about people who had not yet recovered from CFS.
I also wanted to share my learnings and the tools and practices I had used and continue to use today to stay healthy physically and mentally.
I’ve spent years learning, understanding, going deep on how did this happened to me and to gain an appreciation of how can I prevent this from happening to me again. The life I lead today is very different to the life I lived then and this is a good thing.
I love to learn so I naturally gravitated to books, workshops and courses. Since my diagnosis I’ve completed a grad certificate in wellness (which taught me about breathing, food as medicine and positive psychology), I went deeper into positive psychology as I loved it and felt it was so important, I practice and studied meditation, yoga, coaching, so many workshops, writing courses, countless retreats, , crystal healing, breathing workshops, dabbled in essential oils, earth medicine and kundalini …. the list goes on, to ensure I wasn’t telling people things I had not tried or did not understand.
It is important to me that there is both scientific evidence in the difference the tools and techniques I used made. Just as important is that without the science I know they work because they have helped me heal and often we have centuries of writings about the power of acupuncture or meditation or breathing.
I write this post from my friends’ farm in South Africa, I have taken a 12-month career break to bring Wild Orange to life, to travel, and learn, visit old friends, meet new ones and grow as a person, watch the sunrise and sunset, drink coffee…and sleep.
I have done all of these, all except really create and bring Wild Orange to life. Yes, I have done a ton of work in the background and as Tara Mohr calls it, I am an expert at using the delay tactic of working at the whiteboard – happily behind the scenes writing and re-writing, perfecting all the things I want to share before actually sharing them and making numerous excuses to not be vulnerable.
Why – because vulnerability is hard, placing my passion project Wild Orange out “there” is hard but what is now harder is not doing it, not sharing and trusting that this is exactly what I am meant to do.
So today I went to Dirt Therapy, with my friend of 14 years – such a perfect name. It’s actually a very cool gin bar/coffee shop/nursery/keeper of all sorts of amazing things you never knew you needed for your home and garden with heaps of adorable dogs running around.
Anyway, at said therapy session she called me on my lack of progress and fear of writing and sharing, she told me I had to start writing my blog and well here I am writing. Whilst many of my friends have told me this I guess just a lot more gently, 14 year friendships give you a little bit of extra leverage so I sat my butt down and I’m writing.
I am utterly terrified and perhaps not one person will read this post, maybe they will. What I know is that I would like to share what I have learnt about burnout, chronic fatigue and just living life is this crazy hectic world and see what happens.
Thank you my gorgeous Nikki for kicking my butt with kindness…I am getting shit done!
Can’t wait to share what I have been working on.
“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.” J.K. Rowling